sokhed

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sokhed, also known as This Broken Machine, is a tremendous faggot and liar. He once had a disastrous encounter with blindhaberdasher and is currently hated by the entire local internet.

[edit] Halfassed suicide attempt

On December 15, 2006, he posted a suicide note on his MySpace blog. Much like his sexuality, it is ambiguous and noncommittal. The text is reproduced here because its low contrast renders it unreadable.

I may die soon, so here it is.

I am a total fuckup. I hate myself. I ruin myself, my friends, and the person that I care most about. I'm so fucking blind to all of my errors and every mistake that I could ever do. If I had anymore vicoden, I'd take much more than eight. I want to suffer. I want to inflict the pain onto myself that I have given to everyone else times ten. I just want an exit. Between everything that I have done, I deserve to be taken to a field and shot. I just deserve it. If I were to die, I want to say somethings to people:

Grace: I'm sorry that I haven't been all that you wanted. I just wish that I could make myself fix up myself without doing something stupid to fuck it all up. If there were one person I'd want with me when I die, it would be you. I'm just so damned sorry that I have ever let you down or never made you believe that I love you.

Tyler: Kid, we go way back. We aren't the closest of friends like we used to be, but I'd deffinately hope you carry on and find another best friend if I were to die. Make sure he knows that I was the best friend that you could ask for. Make damn sure.

Blaine N: My god, I have never laughed so much in my whole entire life because of you. So many inside jokes and shit like that. Live on through your friends that hold you up above everyone else.

Mom: You always wanted the best for me and I know this is it. If I go away completely, you would know that there would no longer be any way that I could suffer through everything that you know I deal with. I know I never really opened up to you and told you everything that I had bottled up, but you were there when I needed a mother.

Dad: We have had a rocky path, but you will always be my father. I know that I have never really made you proud to be my daddy, but I know that when you see me on stage or hear about my student council, I know that you feel so great that I am trying to do something to contribute to my school life. Thanks for always trying to steer me clear of bad things.

Kevin: Keep making my mom happy.

Beth and kids: Please keep being yourselves. You are some of the best step family I know.

I'm sorry if I didn't mention you, but you are in my mind. I'm going to miss you if I were to die.

His MySpace account has been logged into since then, indicating that this was likely just an excuse to do lots of drugs and make the internet equivalent of drunk phone calls.

[edit] Quotes

• I'm not quite gay, but people tend to give me a hard time due to the fact that I am bisexual. I can't stand how just because we have different beliefs than others that we get several different slurs, get treated less, and are believed to have stereotypical images. I'm in no way shape or form one to carry any stereotypical images, but it kills me to see this happen. People need to open their minds and just let things slide instead of getting so upset over little things. If AB turned out to be gay, would you still visit this site?

• I am good at Slam Dancing (HXC Dancing) and wearing girls clothes. tight pants just seem more comfortable.

[edit] External links

• His MySpace
• His old Livejournal
• His new Livejournal
• A bunch of other stuff about him
• YouTube video of him lip syncing like a faggot

Internet detective IRCWizard provided significant research for this page.